Life's Ultimate Lesson? Love Yourself

January 13, 2015

I often put a lot of pressure on myself and when I’m overwhelmed, I feel numb to all sense experience. I even psych myself into thinking I’m behind schedule, but one day I decided to look at how far I’ve come as a person. The past year has been transformative for me and I can honestly say that Lotus has been the biggest contributor to my personal growth; a catalyst to my own self-discovery in aspects I forgot existed within my own being.

When I first worked with Lotus, it was simply a career-minded endeavor. I was still in school at FIDM SF and was hoping to gain experience with a fashion-based company. It’s been well over a year now and Lotus will always have my heart. Funny thing, though, is that our brand encompasses something beyond fashion. You can say our focus is on inner beauty and healing. We like to dive deep into an individual’s soul and lift them up to the light. The key thing we’ve all learned is that transformation starts from within ourselves. Lotus has shown me that in order to bring light into the world, I’d have to be the light myself (a topic I’ve touched base on in a previous blog post).
 
I’m going to be really transparent with you today and say that I am (have been?) coming out of the spiritual closet. HA! yes, it’s a funny way to say it, but it wasn’t until a year ago that I’ve truly taken a journey on the road to self-discovery, an exploration of my inner world. When I use the term “spiritual,” I’m referring to the individual soul each person on this planet holds in the vessels that we call our bodies.  Seeing myself write this makes me want to admit how “weird” I am, but I’m learning to be open-minded and am slowly removing that word from my vocabulary for its derogatory essence. I don’t actually think I’m weird; I’m simply having a unique human experience. I’ve learned to respect my own passions and, in doing so, I’ve grown to love myself-flaws, cracks, scars, heartache and all. The first step in transforming the world is to first transform what’s inside of you.
 
So, back to my coming out of the spiritual closet… I believe that everyone has the right to know that they can heal themselves. I’ve been tossed around by life’s experiences, and I’ve been pulled in completely opposite directions in my career, but nothing would make me happier than to be a catalyst for another person’s healing and journey to self-realization. In September and October 2014, I was attuned to Reiki levels 1 & 2. For those who are unfamiliar with Reiki, it’s a Japanese hand-placement technique for stress reduction and relaxation that also promotes healing (you may read more about it here). Since my attunement, I’ve become more aware of myself and toxic habits I may have developed. It’s a constant battle to maintain balance, but Reiki has helped me bridge the gaps between my body, mind and soul. Some key points about Reiki: anyone can learn and use Reiki on themselves and others, it can never cause harm, it is NOT a religion, and it is spiritually guided life energy (“spiritually guided” means that the energy will go where it is needed). There is no need to use your own energy or direction, meaning that you won’t feel drained or tired after a healing session. The energy comes from the universe and you are the vessel that it flows through. 

Yup, I went there. This experience has been very personal and intimate to me, but what good comes from keeping it to myself? I’m not yet sure if I’ll create a side business by being a Reiki practitioner, but I feel it's the gateway to healing myself and others.  I believe that when we help each other, we help ourselves. It’s rewarding to be in a position of having something worth sharing. I'm still learning and growing, but I'll say this time and time again: "when we rise, we rise together."
 
[***I’m simply an individual sharing my own journey. I’m not an expert and, no, I haven’t reached the peak of success. Will I ever though? Accomplishment after accomplishment, I'll see room for growth and I'll pursue it. Every experience is a bridge to the next journey, and I’ve been blessed with some really good ones. Thanks for reading! Sending light & love to you all. Have a blessed day.]

-Paulyn



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